It seems that I’m often on motorways at this time of year, in the weeks leading up to Lammas, when the fields are golden with wheat and yellow with rape, and cylinders of gathered hay scatter the land. There is something rich and hopeful about this part of the season and something calming about viewing it at speed from a long straight road that cuts through the landscape.
But there is nothing serene about this journey. We are travelling to a specialist veterinary hospital, where our dog, Winston, will be checked over by a neurologist and receive an MRI scan, after developing a sudden weakness in his back legs. I watch the fields unfold, attempting to dampen the anxiety of this unexpected journey. Suddenly, I glimpse something strange at the side of the road, something I know shouldn’t be there. For a moment, I don’t know what I’ve seen, but then I realise it is a deer, walking on the verge. We hold our breath – she’s too close to the motorway – but in a moment, she turns and melts safely into the trees. I’ve often thought that the deer is the spirit of the woods, a gentle, airy spirit, barely glimpsed. Seeing her now is a good omen, I think.
At the hospital there is talk of slipped discs and surgery, meningitis or stroke. There is definitely a neurological problem, but it seems to be at the low end of the scale. We leave Winston for assessment and drive home silently. As we do, the month’s heat gathers into ominous clouds, hinting at a storm that doesn’t come. To a house that is silent and strange without him.
The clouds finally break the next day. A light drizzle sets in that won’t do much for the withered plants, but brings the temperature down to more comfortable levels. We’re bringing Winston home today. He has two calcified discs, that have caused inflammation of his spine, but they’re hopeful that it will settle with medication and physiotherapy. He is confused and crying after the anaesthetic, panting beside me on the journey home with wide eyes.
We settle into a week of worry and waiting. Winston has been my walking companion for almost six years. It is because of him that I re-discovered nature. It is on our walks that I see what I see. But he is forced to rest, only short visits to the park at the end of the road. Yet there are still glimpses to be had on short walks, or on no walks at all: gilded clouds above our back yard, swifts screaming high in the sky near sunset, goldfinches chattering on the telegraph wires, my only ladybird of the summer on our gate post.
A week later and we return to the hospital for a check up and to see the physio. Dark clouds mass over the motorway once more. Winston’s neurologist wants to watch him walk, so we take him outside to find that rain has finally come. More than drizzle this time. Strong, soaking rain. We don’t care that it’s falling as we walk, we’re all refreshed by it. And with the balm of the rain comes good news. He is stronger, the inflammation must be settling. We come away, for now, with instructions for massage and gentle exercises. This is not something that will go away. We will have to manage it, there may be things he can no longer do, it could become worse. We don’t know how long the journey will be or where it will take us. Back at home, I stand in the yard as the rain falls, tilting my face into it. I’ve waited weeks for this, for the benediction of rain. The scent of it in the air is like hope.
Alovely tale, beautifully told. Glad everything ended on a life affirming note–rain and a dog who can walk more easily. Good luck to all of you as summer melts into fall.
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Thanks Pat, still hoping for more comfortable weather, which will help Winston too.
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Ah, your dear Winston. I hope he is able to manage with his condition. Age comes to us all, in greater or lesser degree, bless him!
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Thanks Jenny, lovely to see you, he’s not actually that old – 6 next week, so hopefully that will help.
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Oh Andrea, Winston is adorable, like a little otter….I’m so glad that the prognosis is hopeful. All I can offer is a lesson that I’m learning myself – take each day as it comes. Don’t let tomorrow’s possible trouble overshadow the happiness of today (inasmuch as that is ever possible, us human beings being the way that we are). There is much to learn from a dog’s total involvement in the moment, their attentiveness and joy, and Winston looks as if he is a most excellent mentor in these matters.
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Thanks Vivienne, yes, they’re famous for having otter-like faces. He’s having good days and not so good days, but yes, if anyone can live in the moment it’s a dog 🙂
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Love to your family and hugs for Winston ❤
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Thanks Alethea.
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It’s a benediction indeed, Andrea. For the land, for you, and for sweet Winston. Our grand-dog had a problem a week ago too, and we worried and waited for the news.
Maybe you should name your sweet companion “Winston Benedict” as he has been a blessing to you too. My best wishes to you all.
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Thanks Cynthia, he’s certainly been a blessing, one of the greatest of my life 🙂
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Very sorry to hear it. I hope Winston makes steady improvement.
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Thanks Carrie.
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There is nothing to add to what I have already said. You are a fine writer, one I look forward to each week. I do not say that to too many writers. Sending best wishes to your walking companion.
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Thank you Bill.
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I’m so sorry to hear about Winston’s health issue, Andrea. He’s fortunately to have someone like you as his caregiver. He’s got the sweetest little face. ❤
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Yes he’s very cute and he knows it!
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I wait for your posts.. Each one is uplifting and inspiring; your observations and your choice of words surprise and comfort. Thank you for sharing.
Winston has such a trusting expression! Wishing him better health soon.
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Thanks for your wishes Jaya.
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It is hard when our pets suffer and we feel so helpless. I hope things improve to manageable levels with Winston. Take care, enjoy the lushness the rain will bring.
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Thanks Eliza.
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Poignant ponderings Andrea. Sending prayers and healing wishes for you and Winston.
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Thanks for that Brad.
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You’re most welcome.
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This captures beautifully the extraordinary place our canines have in our hearts. I’m on dog number five, and each one has enlivened my life before breaking my heart!
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They certainly do both of those things…
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Beautiful, Andrea. I’m glad to hear that Winston’s inflammation is lessening and that he’s more comfortable! May that continue to be the case xo
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Thank you Jamie.
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Oh, Andrea, my heart goes out to you and little Winston. It is so difficult when anything goes wrong with our small best friends, and especially when it’s something that a week of pills or the like won’t make better. Winston looks to me like a Border Terrier (or close) which means he’s a scrappy boy with a lot of heart; I know he won’t take this lying down. Sending love and healing light to him – and you – for his feeling his best for a long, long time yet to come.
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He is a Border Terrier Jeanne and he is a fighter – he’s had quite a few challenges in his life already so I’m sure he’ll be no different now.
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Our animal companions are our children. I am keeping little Winston in my thoughts and prayers, Andrea. It is good news that the inflammation is going down.
Your writing is beautiful, as always.
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Thanks for your good wishes Lavinia.
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All the best to Winston and his caring human family xxx
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Thank you Rachael.
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‘He is confused and crying after the anaesthetic’ I remember that my Jack was like this after his first dental surgery. His sobs nearly made me dissolve into a puddle of tears. I spent ages afterwards just holding him and consoling him. I hope your dear Winston will enjoy a good quality of life now the problem has been diagnosed. For him, I suspect, good quality will include just being in your presence and knowing he is loved.
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Yes, it’s awful when they cry and you can’t tell them what’s going on. He’s getting lots of massages – doctor’s orders – and lots of rest at the moment.
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Special pats from me and Jack.
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Thank you!
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Ah, your darling Winston. It’s so difficult to be faced with our furry loves’ decline, especially since they can’t speak to let us know. He has the face of the kindest angel, your companion on this journey. I’m hoping for a good prognosis moving forward and many more lovely walks in nature.
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Thanks Julia, I’m hoping for that too.
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I always get a tear in my eye when I read about health issues with these precious gifts to humanity. I know what you mean when you say that Winston re-awakened you to nature. They have a way of reminding us of things we sometimes take for granted. I’m glad to hear that Winston is improving, but it’s so difficult to watch them in any sort of discomfort. Here’s to keeping him feeling as well as can be. Those photos of him are adorable.
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Thanks Lori, I probably wouldn’t be writing this blog about the things that I am if it wasn’t for him, he’s a great influence!
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I completely get it. My last boy, Piezon, was my muse. Hugs.
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Sending best wishes to your little buddy, Andrea. He probably cannot wait to resume his long walks with you.
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Thanks for your wishes Inese, yes, he’d like to be doing more than he’s allowed to at the moment!
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Your writing is, as always, gorgeous, Andrea. Even through the pain of worry, you find the beauty around you.
I hope Winston’s condition becomes more than manageable so that you may take longer walks. We all benefit from them.
Lotsa love,
Dale
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Thanks Dale, I hope so too.
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This is a sweet, sad and finally hopeful story. I’m glad that Winston is better and you can take walks again for now.
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Thanks Ina, just short walks for the moment but hopefully that will improve.
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Beautiful writing – very best wishes for the recovery of your sweet little dog. 🙂
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Thanks for your wishes 🙂
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Ah, what a cute pup! So sorry he’s feeling low and having some health issues. I’m currently dealing with a kitty that is feeling bad. She’s had antibiotics, anti inflammatories, X-rays and supplements. Next week is her fourth follow up visit. I’m hoping all is cleared up. We love our pets. They bring so much joy into our lives. How wonderful that Winston helped you to re-discover nature. He really is a special one! Hoping he feels better. x
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Sending best wishes for the kitty, hope she’s feeling better soon 🙂
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Oh, Andrea. He is adorable and has the sweetest eyes. I am sorry he is in any pain at all but am so glad he has you. They are furry angels, aren’t they? They keep watch over us as much as us them.
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They do indeed.
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Really hope Winston recovers well. I love your last sentence. Oh, for the benediction of rain down here in London soon!
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Hopefully you’ve had a little of that benediction by now, we had a fabulously ferocious storm last night, though it was typically on the night of the lunar eclipse that I’d been looking forward to!
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Rain washing the old away and bringing in a new chapter. Winston is in good hands and I am sure you will still have many more peaceful adventures together.
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Thanks Ste.
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Another beautiful post. I do hope Winston is doing a little better.
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Thank you Paula, he’s getting a little better all the time, hopefully that will continue.
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Oh, Andrea — poor dear, Winston. He’s such a sweetie. I’m so glad that it isn’t anything fatal and he’s set to improve. I know that when our dogs are in pain, it’s as if we’ve in pain ourselves. Give him a gentle stroke from me, and lots of healing thoughts x
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It’s true, especially since they can’t tell us exactly how they’re feeling, thanks for your wishes Sarah.
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All the best wishes for the cute little Winston ! As you rightly said Andrea, rain symbolises hope. I believe, Mother Nature is far beyond the reach of medical science and the healing can be much better than what doctor expects. Just wait and see …….
Prayers going up and blessings coming down !
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Thank you for your blessings Mohit, it’s good to see you.
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Well done Winston!
Wishing you many, many more walks with him – whatever the weather.
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Thanks Francesca.
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How lovely to rediscover nature with your little pal. It’s tough when things like this happen .. thinking of you and Winston and fingers crossed for better health for him soon. So pleased to hear it rained …
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Thanks Julie, but did you get any of our sunshine in return? 🙂
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I think we did 🙂
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All my best wishes for cute little Winston !
There is much, the Mother Nature holds than what the medical science knows. Your little buddy will come around …. its only a matte of time. Just wait and see …..
The prayers going up and blessing coming down !
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Dear Andrea, such a heartfelt post.
Winston is too cute for words. I’m sure the house was indeed silent while he was away. I know that feeling too well, and felt it again when they took Crystal to have the cancerous growth removed. The emptiness. But she came back strong.
It’s wonderful that you are feeling positive. Hugs on the wing!
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Thanks Teagan, it’s not always easy to have that positivity, but we count our blessings for every good day he has.
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Sending heartfelt wishes for Winston’s recovery, Andrea. May the rain signal healing for all. ❤
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Thanks for your wishes Carol.
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It is so painful when our dearly beloved companions suffer. Sending you hugs. ❤
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Hello Andrea, the very best of wishes to you all, give the little’n some fuss for me please. Take care.
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Thanks Mick.
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Oh, I hope that Winston will be able to join you again on these wandering walks across the country. It’s hard to witness our fury friends hurting. Looks like yours is in good hands, both with the knowledgeable vet and his loving family.
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Thank you Evelyne.
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Hope this reaches you Andrea,hoping dog ok! Had to comment on ‘benediction of rain’ a very singular phrase,if you dont mind a very none-arty guy (if theres such a term) with the affront to make a challenge to it,or am I way out of my depth?? Regards to miss Bland.
Sent from my iPhone
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Well finally, don’t you reply to your emails?! Hope you’re well, Winston’s doing okay but we’re at the physio tomorrow so we’ll get a progress report then. I hear you’ve been taking to the seas under your own steam, be careful out there 🙂
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I wish you guys the best. Make the memories as joyful as never before.
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Thank you, much appreciated.
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Poor Winston and poor you and your partner! I do hope Winston’s health continues to improve and you are enjoying the slightly cooler weather! Beautiful writing, as ever.
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Thanks Clare, it has been more comfortable since we had a huge thunderstorm on Friday.
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Good!
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My goodness, Andrea. I’m so sorry to hear about Winston’s condition. I can imagine what joy he’s brought you and your spouse so far—and will continue to do. Hoping for a pain-free and content future for all three of you!
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Lovely to see you Leigh, I hope you’re well, and thank you for your wishes.
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oh I am so glad Winston is doing better and that you two can continue to walk so your followers here can relish your words and thoughts on the changing seasons! I’m not quite ready to let Summer go but our heat wave has also abated. it’s been a difficult path this year but father sun has energized my mood as the golden grasses sway in the breeze and the young deer grace the little hill with their genteel quietness. ( except that they eat my flowers lol).
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I’m glad that the summer heat has done you good Cybele, those flowers are obviously the necessary sacrifice for the spirits of the hill to visit!
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indeed you are wise!!
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Lovely to visit you after to long dear Andrea. Oh I do hope that your darling Winston is feeling much better. As we have agreed many times, our pets are family and how we grieve when they suffer. I hope you are both enjoying your lovely walks again… xxx
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Lovely to see you Sherri, Winston is making slow progress, good days and not so good, but he’s having hydrotherapy every week so hopefully that will make a difference.
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Glad to hear the good news about Winston, Andrea, albeit it up and down… ❤
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Okay, now, reading backwards chronologically, I see these posts all about Winston. Praying for Winston! My mom is in the hospital, and she was greatly cheered by a therapy dog named Brody. He put his paws right up on her bed to offer his comfort and love. Sending love and healing to Winston!
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Thank you Carla, I think Winston would like being a therapy dog as he loves people – but he’d probably be too excitable!
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I hope he will continue to improve! Our dog companions are such rich treasures.
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It’s good to know Winston is able to walk, albeit a little now. He did look a little sad in the picture before he reached the vet. It must be have hurt awfully. Absolutely loved the write-up.
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Thanks Smitha, he’s been for his 8th session of hydrotherapy today, doing well.
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